Are the few moments of good results with Ankylosing Spondylitis scientific or miracles? I recently watched a show called Miracle Detectives on The Oprah Winfrey Network. It is about 2 people who search out what some call miracles, one a believer and the other looking for a scientific explanation. Me, being a firm believer in miracles had my interest sparked instantly. You quickly realize that there are so many people in our world that have extreme faith. It is refreshing to say the least. On the other hand, you also learn how many people want to prove them wrong. It’s such a shame that some have nothing better to do than dampen a person’s spirit. I know for me, when pain is at its peak, my faith helps to push me through. It is not for me to say what a person should believe but it is just that, what an individual person believes. Who are we to take that away?

Every time I step up to the pharmacy counter to purchase more medicine or go for another medical test I hope for a miracle that today will be the day the pain will go away. I sometimes feel like a hypocrite to be honest. I consider myself a person strong in my faith but at the same time am the first to turn to the science of medicine to find relief from the pain. I think it takes both science and faith to create a miracle. I can’t tell you the amount of times I have heard it is all about mind over matter. The people that say that usually don’t experience the pain from Ankylosing Spondylitis. AS’ers you know the people I’m talking about. The ones that “know” what we should feel, but in reality could never fathom our best day battling AS. I’m definitely all about keeping a positive frame of mind but some days that can only take you so far.

The amount of scientific treatments that are available on the market today for AS are a miracle in themselves. I feel that we have to embrace aspects of science combined with our beliefs. Whether you believe in miracles or not, you should always grab a hold of the hope that things will get better. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but eventually.

I believe we all have a purpose in this world. Whether it be to teach, learn or experience, we are truly here for a reason. Trust me, I question “why” all the time I was given this disease, but I continue to learn from it and consider the fact that I am here a miracle. I’m constantly reminding myself that God only gives challenges to people who can handle them. If I had a dime for every time a doctor has called me a miracle patient due to my long history of multiple health issues I would be a millionaire. I wish for all of you to be your own miracle. Believing in yourself and doing everything you can to continue giving 110% to your battle with AS, whether it be scientific or faith-based, is your first step in being your own. Each of you helping to spread AS awareness is what helps to make you one of mine. Thank you for being the miracle AS needs.

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  • Jim Weatherhead says:

    I love this post! I have walked with AS for over 35 years…my walk has taken me to the depths of hell and back, and it was hope that carried my back. I have come to believe that God does not bend the laws of nature no matter how hard we ask…however if we live with a pure heart; we can live beyond our disease and create or perhaps better described as – be ready to accept the miracle of science. Science can help us live free of the master of AS, to live with AS as only our challenging, yet peaceful partner, to do this we must be honest in the depths of our heart and soul.

    By honest I mean being able to look unflinchingly into the mirror and understand we have a choice, we can chase the light or dwell in the darkness – we have this choice every moment of every single day. I have come to accept that the laws of nature are finite and in matters of nature we have little choice, influence perhaps, but no actual choice. We do have the absolute choice, given by God, to live with love or hate, anger and denial or forgiveness and acceptance, we can be bathed in the light or encasing by the darkness – on this choice all depends. It’s not a hard choice to make, but a very hard choice to live.

    “The path of least resistance makes both men and rivers crooked” M.K. Gandhi

    Literally crooked in the case of an AS sufferer.

    Life with AS is an unyielding lessen in what’s really important in life…Faith, Love, Truth, Service…there is no way one can successfully live with this disease without understanding the deeply spiritual walk of humility and service to others. I have learned through personal action, that when I am suffering most, the way out is to help somebody else, do a random act of kindness, smile at a stranger, any time an opportunity presents itself try to lift another – act with grace. In this way we move beyond ourselves and our own pain.

    “Chase the light, absorb the light, be the light” … Jim Weatherhead

    • admin says:

      Jim thank you so much for your support! I love your response! Your words are “spoken” beautifully. Your words hit home to me, and I’m sure to many others who experience life with AS.

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